Transitions

So, its pretty unbelievable, but its been 30 days since I started this blog, and joined match.com. I'm not too sure where all the time went. I probably spend a few days just reading emails from match-ers but it seems like in a blink of an eye that month came and went.

So last night I went on, lets say, my second official Match date with someone who I was genuinely interested in meeting. I must say there is something strange about this process, when it seemingly works like it should... but you are left thinking, what If I like him, and he doesn't like me? We met for sushi in Old Town (by his place, which in hindsight was kind of duche-like) but had some good chit chat and even better wine and sake. I would not say it was the best date I've ever been on, but I felt comfortable. There were things about him that reminded me of my ex, which kind of bothered me, but there were also things I liked about it. At the end of the day, he seemed like a genuine, decent, yet somewhat cocky guy who tries too hard to be funny and probably thinks too highly of himself. But for the most part he was normal, and I would totally go out with him again. 

Today is the 11th hour. I only signed up for a month memebership, and have been toying with the idea if I should renew or cancel. As much as I complain about how shitty this site is and how genuinely strange 90% of the people on there are and how reading and responding took over my life for a while, part of me was tempted to bite the bullet and stay on. I thought maybe if I changed up my profile, and made it private, maybe I could experience match in a different way.

One big hang up I've had this entire time, is, even if I met Mr Right, I'm not in a place personally, where I could be Ms Right, too. Lately I've found myself turning down invitations with some of these random people because, quite frankly, I'm not the person I want to be right now. I feel like I'm still going through my own life transitions and am not armed for the battlefield of love, just the one of wine. When I signed up it was more to see what was out there, but the thought of actually being in a relationship totally freaks me out. I'm happy to go out with and meet new people, but this whole process seemed like a whole lot of work, that inevitably could pay off, but right now just seems like a whole lot of risky nothing.

So you know what I did this week? I did something for myself. I joined a new cycling studio a few blocks away, and since then instead of hours of emailing, I've spent most of my freetime on a stationary bike, and I couldnt be happier. Instead of spending hours staring at a computer screen i actually have been accomplishing something, and it feels great.

And something else happened. In looking for something else to do with my time I stumbled upon an upscale matchmaker who was looking for an assistant to help her do some recruiting. In meeting with her tonight, I kind of felt this line of work would be a piece of cake for me. We talked a bit about online dating, and it was interesting that I saw this opportunity as being the perfect transition out of the past 30 days. Its Match.com without the .com. I see some good things brewing on the horizon.

I'm not against being on Match, and honestly, I will probably go back on. I feel like I have enough numbers, friends, people, and myself to focus on for even just a little while. Maybe if I actually meet all the people I somehow gave my number too, and things come up dry, I try again.

I think this should be an intersting next chaper that I'll obivously continue to document. I mean, I have a lot of mystery men programmed into my phone that I need to start dating.