Somewhere around day 10 or 11, my shock and frustration got the best of me, and I couldn't even bring myself to write about this anymore. Lets just say the few times I have chosen to "put myself out there" have been terrible. Well, maybe not terrible, but pretty freaking bad. No, they were terrible. So much, I decided to take a break from looking at match, or responding to anyone, to just take a moment to digest and sit back.
I'm starting to think my stereotypical assumptions about the majority of people on this site, are true. A lot of these people have no people skills, or at least some serious problems, that hiding behind a screen can help us describe. Lets be honest, we are all perfect on paper. Anyone can seem like a dream boat behind a perfectly orchestrated selection of qualities, traits, hobby, and photos.
I'm also starting to realize everyone is looking for the same thing. Someone who's fun, to explore the city with, who likes to get dressed up to go out but can also spend a night at home. HELLO? Isn't that what we all frickin 'want? The difference sets in if you're cool and have a personality or if you're dull as a doornail.
I don't even know if its worth my time recapping in detail the past few match encounters I've had, so I'll just share some cliff notes.
1) After a 2 hour IM conversation at 10pm, I agreed to meet DJ at a college bar near UIC where, at midnight, we engaged in life meaningful conversation while Keisha was blaring and 18 year olds were spilling their drinks in plastic cups on me as they got them from the bar. This guy is 30? No wonder he's on match. Fail.
2) I thought I would expand my horizons last week and meet up with a Dr who is new to the city, I was completely unattracted to, but offered to take me to the Symphony as he was the doctor on call. I thought why not, perhaps we can have some enlightening conversation and it might be nice. Pushing myself out of my comfort zone just for the sake of a new experience. While the music was nice, and the wine after was good, his company was awkward. So, I basically left my date with him and went to go meet....
3) Another guy I had been emailing who again, on email, thought might be a hit. Similar backgrounds, educated, not too bad on the eyes, world traveler, he even seemed kind of preppy. We had a great email exchange. I thought, maybe, just maybe, this could be a good match. What is with these losers who are just basically incredibly socially awkward? I mean, again, I'm not perfect, but after a few glasses of wine, anyone can be entertaining... or at least have something interesting to talk about. Fail (x2 that night)
4) I went out last night to watch the bears game with some friends, and basically told someone who had been trying to meet me for a drink to "swing by" in an effort to keep things casual with friends. I dont even think I can type about this one without getting frustrated. Not only did he swing by, order drink's on my friends tab, and then tell me about how many children he hopes to have, I asked him politely that we should probably meet some other time, as this wasn't really the type of environment to have life plan conversation, and he wouldn't leave. Even after I asked him to. And told him I wasn't interested.
Now, I don't get it. Am I doing something wrong? I honestly don't understand how I'm ending up with all these crazy people. No wonder people find a "match" on here... because between all the weirdos they go out with by the time they finally find someone normal, they seem like a match made in heaven.
Part of me may be bitter at this point, I had a rough weekend. I starting to question what I even want right now. Maybe it really is just time to focus on myself for a while... Maybe while I'm out there being myself, the right person will just come along, because right now I feel like I'm wasting my life away looking for that person on a computer. And on that note, I'll sign off for now. Cheers.
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